okay.
im replying to your blog xy.
im seriously sorry for what happened.
and i seriously didnt mean it.
you can say im a pig.
or im common sense-less.
anything.
but i really didnt want this to happen.
why would i want everyone to fall out with me.?!

the order of my writing is according to yours *

anyway.
yes im wrong to bring in an outsider into this.
but i didnt mean it.!
i didnt know he would call and you guys would end up fighting.
he just told me to ask you to call through and stuffs.
and im not blaming him either
( dont get me wrong )
that time when everyone scolded you in your blog.
what can i do
let me ask you that.
suggest me some ways.
and in the end didnt i fix it.?
although it wasnt proper.
i changed your script in your blog and everything went wrong.
didnt that solve everything.?

i know you'll hate me for this.
for being all so evil to get the job done.
but i didnt want to continue to see it over and over.
okay.?

i know in this matter im at fault.
im not denying it.
i can tell the whole wide world how sorrowful i feel towards this.
and i didnt know you both would start fighting in the conver.
I SWEAR.
if i knew that would happen,
would i even put you two together.?
you know it'll make me feel miserable if i did that on purpose.
and im sorry about the misunderstanding about the jap thing
all of us didnt know.
its obvious isnt it.
if its fake,
why would anyone use that against ed.?

about joel's,
he also misunderstood about it so you cant entirely blame him.
you may say im protecting him or whatever.
but he's someone I brought in.
anything come and scold me
okay.

he isnt destroying the relationship between me and edmund.
he only voiced out how much he doesnt like him to me.
when asked.
okay.
he doesnt always go
I HATE EDMUND I HATE EDMUND.
HE'S THIS THIS THIS
HE'S THAT THAT THAT.
no okay.
joel doesnt do things like that alrights.?

and.
he isnt evil
=.=ll

and back to me again.
yes i know everyone is dissappointed with me.
for making such a HUGE mistake.
and im really sorry.
i swear on my own head that i did not ask joel to solve it for me.
okay.?
i only needed someone to confine to.
he was just being helpful for helping me.
unfortunately everything screwed okay.
i dont know what im thinking
nor do i know what im doing.
im not up to anything.
and i didnt know that call would have been a lecture.
..
now you're just telling me its my fault.
i admit i admit.!
IM AT FAULT.
you dont have to repeat it so many times,
i did not ask joel to make it ed's fault.
okay.
its not like i'd go.
YOU KNOW.
ITS ALL ED'S FAULT.
AND EVERYONE'S BLAMING ME.
you know i wont do that.
or you think i might.
i dont know.
i dont know how you think of me anymore.

yes ed's my friend and i admit i started everything.
you dont have to remind me alrights.
what can i say when you two are fighting.?
i was feeling so guilty when both of you started arguing.
what can i say.?!
no no no its not like that.
its this this this.
no no no its like that.
this this this.
.
i dont do things like that okay.

i really didnt know that telling him would cause problems.
it doesnt even sound offending okay.
take it as im a retard.
a bitch.
a common-senseless.
a fucker.
a whatever alrights.
whatever you guys think of me now.
i seriously dont know.
but i really REALLY dont know why i said it out k.
and i hate to say this.
but i seriously didnt know it'll affect anyone.
i know he is someone who doesnt like ed.
but its just a small comment.
i didnt know he would blow up on it.
if i knew.
why would i tell him.?
you know i wont want edmund to get into trouble.
unless you all see me as someone who deliberately do this to hurt ed.
or give him trouble.
or kill him.
whatever.
ok.
after all he IS my friend.
i wont want any trouble on him either.!

the past is the past.
people change.
i know all of you felt that i've change.
i've been trying hard to change back.
yes sometimes i just leak out secrets.
and i wont know that i did.
but whatever it is.
you can just say im untrustable.
or dont trust me.
whatever it is.
i dont really care.

in the first place.
( this might make all of you angry )
i did not promise i wont say anything in that conver.
i know its common sense that i dont but i didnt know it would affect him so much.
therefore,
i did not break my promise.
im only EQ-less.
or anything.
okay.
im really regretful about this.

whatever it is,
if you guys arent happy with me.
i can understand.
there wont be a blog fight.
i assure you that.
but
i just want to tell you all.
im sorry.
i didnt know it'll turn out this way.
so..
warning to readers out there.
dont trust me anymore.
or dont trust anyone.
you wont want yourself to end up like any of us in the argument.